Have you ever felt your heart break? I have, I felt my heart beak on 4/3/15 when I found out my son had passed away in my womb. It is an unreal feeling, something that I never thought I would know about. When your heart breaks you literally feel it, your body has this numb feeling and your heart seems to take over every feeling in your body. As your heart breaks you can literally feel it, your heart begins to ache and it seems to feel like it breaks into a million pieces. I also didn't realize my heart would break many times after this. My heart breaks when I think about the things baby Axl will miss, when I think about him and just miss everything about my pregnancy, and when I see other babies or pregnant women. I think my heart has broken for my son more times than I could count.
As your heart breaks there is nothing to fix it, it is broken for what seems like forever. There is always something that seems to break it again and again. I have walked around now for 24 days with a broken heart and it only seems to get harder and harder. The emotional strain with a broken heart is exhausting, there are times that I just want to lay down and not move just to try and heal my broken heart. I am forever going to be trying to heal it, and I am not sure how or what to do. I am not sure my heart will ever be whole again, if it is never whole I at least hope it stop breaking at one point because I am not sure I could survive anymore heart break in my life.
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