Feeling Lost

It is a strange feeling to go from planning for a baby to not having a baby anymore. We had a pack n' play, high chair, bassinet, baby clothes, diapers, stroller, and car seat all set up and ready to go, and then we were told our baby was gone. He had a room getting set up for him and now it is like a museum of items that were never used, but we can't get rid of. I went from making guest lists for baby showers, and a baby registry to not knowing what to do with my life. I am lost, where do I go with my life now? I had the next months and years planned out. I was supposed to be cuddling a baby, watching my son grow, and spending time with him as he learned new things. How do I just drop everything I was going to do with my son and move on with my life? I am not sure what to do this summer as I did not take a summer teaching job due to my son being due this summer. I planned on making everything for my little man and getting ready for him until he came. It has been two weeks now to the day, and I am just not sure what to do. I feel like some of my choices are just to keep me busy. I am signing up for masters classes, a summer course for reading foundations, and making plans of what to do around the house. So how does one go from baby planning back to a "normal" life without feeling like they are forgetting their child, but not getting lost still?