Everyone moved on...

I have noticed lately that  I feel like I am the only one left that seems to still remember my son. Everyone has moved on, he does not exist in their world anymore, he is only a part of mine. I think about him daily, I want to talk about him like everyone else gets to talk about their children. He is not even an option for discussion around everyone unless I am telling someone how sad, angry, or how much I miss him. I don't want sympathy from anyone, I just want to talk about my baby boy Axl. I want to be able to smile and share joy about him. Everyone moved on though, no one brings him up, he is like a secret no one can talk about. I wish everyone thought he was the best thing to talk about, it is not keeping me from healing if we do, it is helping me heal. I want my son to be a part of my life forever. When someone asks me if I have children, I want to be able to tell someone yes I have one child, but he is in heaven. When I say this I don't want anyone to feel bad for me, I want someone to ask about him! Though lately, if  he is brought up it is with sorrow and broken hearts, why can I not talk about my son with happiness? I am starting to feel like my life is turning invisible to everyone. I don't want to pretend like my son didn't exist, I want everyone to rewind, come back and let me talk about my baby boy without feeling like they need to tell me "I'm sorry", "You will get pregnant again", or "Are you okay?" Stop moving on without me, but don't try to pull me along with you either, let me talk bout him, let him exist!!